TICKED OFF

Anyone here with any wise answers to why my body sucks this cycle?

I have NEVER had a cycle like this. EVER! Even last month my body worked right. Or at least I thought it did. I didn't temp so maybe I am just screwed up.

My temp really hasn't done poop! My ovaries HURT! I have discharge like I am suppose to for the past 2 weeks! I did the deed AGAIN yesterday!

What is wrong?

Anyone want to play chart detective? Have a look!

The Big Drop

I was wrong. I guess I haven't Oed even though I have had the signs now for 2 weeks.

My temperature dropped big time this morning. We also didn't do any baby making. I just couldn't. So now it looks like we have to do it for sure tonight. I am about to throw my thermometer right out the window and quit!!!

What is up with my body?

Temping

I hate temping. But when I wasn't temping because I was pregnant I actually missed it. It is one of those habits like turning on your alarm clock or taking your vitamin.

I am at a very critical point in my cycle. Temping is crucial right now. Yesterday morning I woke up and realized that my thermometer was in the bathroom. I couldn't temp. I needed to know if I was ovulating or not. Not really for baby making but for peace of mind. I wanted to wake up Grumps but I knew that he wouldn't be happy.

I decided to get up and go to the bathroom and just take it from there. My temperature dropped a tad. It didn't jump like I needed it too. I thought that I would reinact it all this morning. I needed to see how much my temperature would drop from walking to the bathroom.

I took my temperature from bed first this morning. It had sky rocketed. I walked to the bathroom and did it again. It stayed the same. I guess that means I am ovulating today. We will have to baby make one more time tonight. It will be our 5th time this week. WRONG!!!

Not only am I a pregnancy detective who was right, I am a thermometer detective as well.

I Have a Secret...

that I just can't keep anymore.

Remember that high temperature and how I was going to test? Well that next morning my temperature was still up. I was SHOCKED. So I tested, not expecting much. I always take my test back to bed with me and then just roll over. I pushed my snooze button to see the inevitable. I just knew it would be that stupid single line. NOPE! I had two lines. I freaked out and couldn't believe it.

I turned my lamp on and started to shake in excitement. Grumps was getting ready for work in the bathroom. I have always had a plan on how I would tell him. I went digging into my closet for the Papa beanie baby that I bought him. I put the test with the bear on his pager and crawled back under the covers. My heart was beating so fast that it felt like I had just ran a marathon. The minutes tick by and he is still in the bathroom. I couldn't stand the wait any longer.

I ran into the bathroom with the bear and the test. He had no clue what I was doing . I told him that the bear's name was Papa and the test should that we were pregnant. He was so shocked that he just couldn't believe it. He told me that I should rely on the test. We have NEVER gotten a positive before. He hugged me and couldn't stop smiling.

All day I was in a fog. I took 2 more tests to confirm the news.

Grumps didn't want me to share our news. Of course I won out on that vote. I shared with a few close friends that day. Throughout the week I shared with a few others. My family arrived last week and we shared with them. I have a few others to share with tomorrow at church. Our last people to share with will be Grumps' family. We are going to visit them next Saturday in Canada.

I had my first doctor's appointment last week as well. My doctor was totally beside himself with the news. He confirmed the due date, March 20th. He also scheduled my first sonogram for August 9th!

I am still over the moon with the news. I am 5 weeks and 4 days along.

I now have a disclaimer for those of you who know my in laws. Please keep this news to yourself. We would hate for it to get all the way back to them before we could tell them in person. It would just kill my mother in law to know that she wasn't told by us. This is one reason I took so long to post. I wanted to tell those of you who I know in real life my news in person. I love seeing your faces light up with shock!

The Charting Game

I am back from my travels for awhile. I am very glad to be home. Not having alone time just about kills me. I have to work very hard to stay a nice person.

Now that I am back home I am playing the charting game. Have any of you played this game before? I check my temperature every morning and then plug it in to my chart on Fertility Friend. I then sit back and watch. I have ovulated FINALLY!!! Now I am in the 2 week wait. I am just shocked because my temperature is still up and today I should have started my period. Yes, you heard that right. Usually it does a nice little drop.

My hopes are trying very hard to stay under control. We didn't really optimize our baby making time this month. I feel Aunt Flow creeping up on me. My boobs also feel broken.

I HATE this stupid game~! I try very hard not to talk about it with others. It is like as soon as I speak my hopes or fears out loud during the this game time, the game ends with Aunt Flow. Tomorrow will be the big day. If my temperature is still up I will test. I am trying very hard to keep my mind off the game today.

The Countdown

The countdown has really begun. I am in my last month of wait.

The questions have started. The plans are being asked about. The excited others have has begun.

I on the other hand haven't been thinking about it. I mean I do think about it, but I don't. I talked to Grumps about it yesterday and he was with me. We don't want to set ourselves up for disappointment. We have been down that road and it wasn't too pretty.

Here is the plan:

Pray for Lupron to leave quickly and my cycle to start up. It has been almost 9 months since I have had one.

Start taking my temperature looking for that lovely spike yelling, "Get your groove on!"

Prenatals!

Relieving Grumps frustrations over and over again hoping to SCORE!

The Long term plan:

Not sure! IUI, Meds? IVF has even been thrown around. Adoption is a long ways off.

There you have it! 3 weeks 4 days until the meds are 'gone'.