Tuesday, April 08, 2008

Nothing New, Just Blue

We headed back to my brother's house yesterday. My mom has different appointments this week and her first chemo treatment. Everyone came with us. MAN I need my own little space. I love being alone and I just don't get any time being with the family. I took a LONG shower today just to be for a bit.

We did have a wonderful time at the lake this past week. Grumps came with our dog. I can't tell you how much I have missed just seeing his face. I hated sending him back home yesterday morning. The time spent as a family was very healing and encouraging. We are all still standing in agreement for my mom's healing.

Here is a snapshot of all I get to hang out with during my day. FUN TIMES!

My Mom:

Right now she is lying on my SIL's closet floor on oxygen listening to healing scriptures. She isn't sleeping much. She is constantly rubbing this and that hoping for relief. The cough comes and goes. I massage her back as often as I can. Nothing seems to taste good. I have to make her eat.

My Dad:

CONSTANTLY on the phone or computer. He repeats the same stories to everyone. He tells my mom what she can do which drives her nuts. He just mopes around. He needs to go back to work before he drives us all nutty.

My Sister:

Never stops defending herself. She sits and watches everyone else work. She leaves a mess wherever she goes. She is as useless as tits on a boar. She needs to go back to work too.

ME:

Going crazy! I have slept on every possible couch and bed since I have been gone. I have reworn my same outfits over and over again. I constantly look tired. I am tired. I miss my normal life. BUT I am getting out today! My good friend lives here and is taking me to lunch. I can't wait to have a glass of wine.

See I told you, nothing new, just blue. Oh and my mom doesn't really want us to watch tv. I get it but MAN do I miss some of my shows.

16 comments:

LJ said...

So glad to hear an update on you and your mom. It's good to know you are all together - even if under these circumstances.

Snapshots said...

Thinking of you all constantly. Praying that you get a bit of 'you time' soon.

The Town Criers said...

Still sending good thoughts to your mum, but is it okay that I'm giggling over "tits on a boar?"

Jen said...

You have been very much in my thoughts and prayers.

(And I'm with Mel on the giggling.)

Rose C said...

I am praying for you, your mom and sister and dad, and for your baby pops! Hang in there, dear one!

Fertilized said...

I am still praying for you and your situation - love love love the image of tits on a boar! so funny

glad you are getting out. Oh the stircrazy you must feeel and then no tv ...hang in there

Lori said...

Hi, Sunny. Sending thoughts to you and your family. But not to the tits nor the boar.

beagle said...

Sending you some love . . .

JJ said...

You are in my prayers, Sunny!

Trish said...

Oh sweetie..

One note on the getting mom to eat. My FIL had no appetite either (Stage 4 Melanoma), and the docs said to get those Ensure drinks. That way she can keep her stregth up and my MIL had a lot easier time getting those into him than trying to get him to eat.

I wish I could take you home and let you sleep in my spare room in the quiet for a while. And I'd let you borrow the TiVo.

Jen said...

You're still in my thoughts and prayers!

Meghan said...

So glad you updated, I've been thinking about you. Hope the first chemo goes as well as it comes. And I second the ensure drinks, it was all my FIL could tolerate or keep down.

You and the fam are in my prayers

icsi said...

thinking of you all and wishing i had better words that could somehow make this easier for you

jill said...

Thinking about you, praying for you, wishing I could do something more wonderful!

Adriane said...

Delurking....I linked to this blog a few weeks ago from another blog I visit regularly. I wanted to let you know that I've been following your story and thinking about you and your family.

I felt compelled to comment today because I have a sister just like yours. :-)

Wordgirl said...

Hi Sunny,

I'm just sitting here with you -- wishing you strength in this time.

My thoughts are with you.

Pam