Its time for a new blog to go with my new life! Thanks Amber!
Monday, September 07, 2009
Sunday, September 06, 2009
It has been such a long time since I have blogged. I have wanted to blog but my world is... it has been hard.
The babies are totally the easy part. They stick to their little schedules. No crying. Just sleeping, pooping, feeding. The rest of my life has been messed up.
The real truth is, my husband has been having an affair since January. He came clean in April right before I went on bedrest. I kicked him out but he came back quickly wanting to change. Of course I trusted him. After the babies were born and home the truth came out again. He had never stopped seeing her. I kicked him out again. He lived on his own for a month and realized how much he wanted his life to be with me and the babies. I wanted it to work too. He started getting help and I really thought it would work. This past week he started second guessing his decision. Then the truth came out again. He was in contact with her and had been with her. IT IS OVER!
He says he can't live without her. Well I can live without him. My heart breaks for my little ones. He took them last night for two nights. They are playing house now.
Maybe now everything is out in the open I can enjoy blogging again. Who knows... My life will never be the same. 11 years of marriage are gone forever.
Posted by Sunny at 8:28 AM
Monday, July 06, 2009
WOW time has past so quickly since I last blogged. SO much has happened.
*Quit my job at 28 weeks. My little man never moved off my cervix. Talk about PRESSURE!
*Ended up on hospital bedrest at 28 weeks. Yep the day after I quit my job. No nesting at home or getting a pedicure.
*5 1/2 weeks of bedrest... I know, I should have blogged but my brain was mush the whole time.
*33 1/2 weeks I woke up drunk off ambien at 1:20 in the morning with wet sheets. My water had broken. I was so drunk I almost didn't call Grumps BUT I at least changed my facebook status! at 3:54 and 3:55 am my little loves were born.
*Welcome to the world Grace and Stephen. Grace stayed in the NICU for 3 weeks. Stephen just arrived home after a month on Friday.
NOW we are a family of 4 with a dog who can't get enough licks.
Posted by Sunny at 8:40 AM
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
It has been awhile. Once again I find myself exhausted when I get home. Teaching and waddling along takes lots of energy.
Back to my title... If you have watched Kyle XY you will know Kyle is missing something on his body. Any guesses? Yep, his belly button. Mine is GONE! I rubbed my belly today and it felt weird. I then realized I didn't have a belly button anymore. It made me laugh and then made me make everyone around me feel. I know soon it will pop out in a very scary way especially since I am on 23 weeks.
This past week would have been my angels birthday. Healing has taken place because I didn't remember the day. I actually had to go back through my blog to find it. I knew the week but not the day. Each day as I felt these little lives move I thought of my sweet angel baby. 'She' would have been 2. Still breaks my heart. BUT I am pretty sure if we had our little one we wouldn't be having these two miracles. It is just hard all around. The bottom line, I am blessed.
I have my first shower on Friday. I NEVER thought it would be my time. I actually feel guilty and scared about it all. I know MANY who deserve this more. Every day I wake up and have to remind myself I am pregnant. This is real. I still can't wrap my mind around it. Along with the fear of the shower, the nursery is up and under construction. Baby clothes are coming in. I got the bedding in yesterday. One day little ones will be living in there. I can barely go in the room. I am totally whacked!
Back to the belly... I can't wait for warmer weather so I can start wearing dresses. My clothes are starting to get small again. This belly is taking over. I don't remember life without it. I might waddle. My clothes might be limited. But I am in love with this belly and the life that lives inside.
Monday, March 02, 2009
We found out. I never thought I would cave like that. I always wanted the surprise from the doctor holding up our little one say "You are having a ..." I couldn't resist. It would have been hard to not SEE one of our little ones anyway. It was right there in our face.
Not only do we know what we are having, I am feeling these little ones moving. Thump thump thump on my right side. Grumps got his turn too. I LOVE it! At one moment yesterday one of them moved and I could feel a nice hard lump. So precious to feel life!
I am feeling so much better these days. Week 20 is on Wednesday and I am growing like crazy. I can't hide I am pregnant anymore. My 2nd graders are still amazed by it all. Always wanting to put a hand on my belly and even wanting to see my belly button.
The cribs are on their way. The dresser is ordered. The bedding... I can't decide. I have plenty of time but I would LOVE to have this decision made. Everyone wants to know about names. We have none. They will come.
So are you ready to know what we are having?
Their little profiles show just how precious they are. I am in LOVE!
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Everyone and their brother knows we are pregnant. It has been fun sharing. But I had been keeping it a secret from my class of second graders. I wanted to wait to tell them after my big u/s. As the days went by I realized it was getting harder to do.
Students: Are you having a baby?
Students: I don't know. Are you?
Me: I don't know. Am I?
Look of fright not knowing how to answer that.
Students: I don't know... silence.
Grumps said I was being mean keeping it a secret when they know something is going on. So I shared with them last week. They were and still are so cute about it.
Me: Have you guys noticed anything different about me lately?
Students: Ummm you are calmer.
(That would be me being tired. HA!~)
Students: You are more strict.
(hormones and me being tired.)
Me: How about how I look? Do I look fatter?
Students: YES and you are eating SO MUCH!
Now it gets to the part where hands go up everywhere. Some have huge grins on their faces. They have figured out the secret and just needed me to confirm it.
Student: YOU ARE PREGNANT!
Cheers go up all around the room.
Me: Yes and with twins.
They couldn't contain themselves. They had to touch my belly and ask questions. We talked about everything that was appropriate and even some things that weren't. Dead babies even came up. My little ones will know way more about being pregnant than most. One girl tried to explain how the babies lived in a bubble. The next day I showed them a picture of both the babies together. The first words were, IT IS A BUBBLE!
They check on my eating, making sure I am being healthy. I hold their little hands so still on my belly. They are in shock at how hard it is. They also look every day to see if it is growing. It really is so sweet.
Now I can't wait to share with them what we are having. They are already starting a list of possible names. HA!
Monday, February 16, 2009
Calling all twin moms (really anyone)!
Tell me your musts and must nots for your babies. I know everyone has their own preference and opinions. But what have you learned? Strollers? Tips?
I have been searching message boards and websites to get thoughts. Now it is your turn!
Here's a little fast catch up!
I have started to feel the babies move. Not as often as I would like but there are little rolls and pops and moves. This weekend I swear I felt a flick like a kick. I am ready to feel them more. It puts my mind at ease. I have been feeling overwhelmed. I have to work hard to keep my thoughts positive.
On the weekends I don't leave my bed much. The week at work is a killer. This is where the belly and waddle comes into play. I have found on the weekend I feel great. Rested, comfortable. Sleep is even good, especially since I crash so early. During the week it is the opposite. With all the walking I do things hurt, and cause major pressure. I find myself waddling. Everyone laughs and reminds me how early it is. There is nothing I can do about it. I am a teacher. I walk. In my classroom I sit but to get the kids from one place to the next I have to walk. I noticed it last night. I haven't had pressure since I have stayed in bed all weekend. Grumps went out last night so I found myself going up and down the stairs a lot. By the end of the evening the pressure was back. Too many stairs.
I started my twin registry. OVERWHELMING!!! I still haven't decided on cribs. The secret reason, afraid I will get back news at my next appointment (today) or at our big u/s (next week). My first shower is the last Friday of March. OH MY!
I am tired of the 8 baby jokes I hear at work EVERY DAY~
I started purging my house but am not even close.
My belly is getting big (18 weeks on Wed.). It isn't huge but it is there.
I guess I could go on and on but will stop. I actually have some posts working in my head that I plan to type up. I will hold them throughout the week so you aren't bombarded with 4 in one day.