I have GOOD NEWS!!!!
Tuesday, December 02, 2008
Monday, December 01, 2008
No words but please God don't let it be like our last pregnancy ultra sound. I can't bare to have another moment of complete silence from the doctor looking for life. I can't have the swimming through water, not being able to breathe moment. I can't have the world standing still, Grumps trying to console and me falling apart. I NEED to see life!
I hate how my world is tainted. I hate how it has been touched with death and wait and uncertainty before. Why can't the world be roses?
I live for a pregnancy sign. I live for feeling sick. I smile when I feel puky. I cheer when I can't eat another bite. No complaining. I need those moments.
Tomorrow I HAVE to see life! God you have to hold me tight. It has to be okay.