Monday, September 07, 2009

New Blog

Its time for a new blog to go with my new life! Thanks Amber!

Sunday, September 06, 2009

The Real Truth

It has been such a long time since I have blogged. I have wanted to blog but my world is... it has been hard.

The babies are totally the easy part. They stick to their little schedules. No crying. Just sleeping, pooping, feeding. The rest of my life has been messed up.

The real truth is, my husband has been having an affair since January. He came clean in April right before I went on bedrest. I kicked him out but he came back quickly wanting to change. Of course I trusted him. After the babies were born and home the truth came out again. He had never stopped seeing her. I kicked him out again. He lived on his own for a month and realized how much he wanted his life to be with me and the babies. I wanted it to work too. He started getting help and I really thought it would work. This past week he started second guessing his decision. Then the truth came out again. He was in contact with her and had been with her. IT IS OVER!

He says he can't live without her. Well I can live without him. My heart breaks for my little ones. He took them last night for two nights. They are playing house now.

Maybe now everything is out in the open I can enjoy blogging again. Who knows... My life will never be the same. 11 years of marriage are gone forever.