Praise

Today on the way to church and during the worship I heard many of the songs that gave me hope this past year. I love music, all kinds. But the music that I always turn to when I feel lost is praise music. It is like God is talking to me through it. I can feel Him holding my hand or carrying me along as soon as the song comes on. It is amazing what it does to my spirit.

When I used to hear these songs from my journey, I would go speechless. I would even silently cry. Now that I am in the middle of my waiting period they give me hope. They make me want to shout the words from the rooftops.

I remember one week when I was having a 'blue day/week'. (That is what I call my days when I could stay in bed under the covers for the rest of my life.) God gave me a song or actually a part of a song to sing and play in my head over and over again from morning to night: The Voice of Truth. I would just repeat 'the voice of truth' whenever my mind was silent. It was a reminder that when things get really down and the voice of doubt comes into my thoughts, God's promises, the Voice of Truth, will always prevail.

Not only did I hear that song today, but I heard my journey song, Made Me Glad. I would put that song on repeat and let it consume my thoughts. One week my good friend sang it at church (like she did today) and I just cried. She came and sat beside me and told me that it was for me. That week I thought for sure I was pregnant. My hopes were so high. Higher than they had ever been when at last I got that horrible big fat negative on my millionth pregnancy test. That sky high hope went crashing down to the depths of nothing. Once again God spoke to me throught that song, through my friend.

I will bless the Lord forever
I will trust Him at all times
He has delivered me from all fear
He has set my feet upon a rock
I will not be moved
And I'll say of the Lord

You are my shield, my strength
My portion, deliverer
My shelter, strong tower
My very present help in time of need

Whom have I in heaven but You
There's none I desire beside You
You have made me glad
And I'll say of the Lord

You are my shield, my strength
My portion, deliverer
My shelter, strong tower
My very present help in time of need

In Psalms David said, "This is the day that the Lord has made, I will rejoice in it!" When he said that he was hiding from King Saul, fearing for his life. It wasn't a good day at all; yet he trusted God and because of that he would rejoice! I will rejoice to my great God throughout this journey, from the beginning, middle and end!