Monday, June 18, 2007

My Brain and the Thoughts that Come Out of It!

It is late! I should be in bed but I just can't stop! Grumps is gone this week for work. I am heading out to Tampa tomorrow.

WOW TAMPA is all I keep hearing. WOW THE BEACH! Ummmm nope I am going to help my mom take care of my little nephew. Yep the little one born right after my miscarriage. I love the little booger but I want my own little one. I am trying to be strong this week. I hope he is just a pain so I will feel better about it all. This is not the way I wanted to start my summer vacation.

I called my dad on Father's Day. YES I was a good daughter. On Mother's Day I just sent my mom a text message. She did get a card and gift but I just couldn't make the call. My dad chatted my head off. He said he might show up later in the week to 'help' with the little man. He said he wanted to see me but also really wanted to see his new and only grandson. He goes on and on about the brag book my mom bought him. He was just in love with sharing his pictures. I teared up and really wanted to say, "SHUT UP! Don't you realize I am sad?" Instead I said, "How sweet!" And then made funny faces to Grumps!

Preggos are popping up everywhere! Baby talk is all around me. I am holding strong!

D is thinking of a dry summer! I told Grumps about it. Guess what he said? "You should try that too!" WHATEVER! It is my summer to have fun. If I want to drink I will drink because I CAN DRINK!!!! He needs to just shut up or become a woman in my shoes. HA!

Schools out for SUMMER! But all I can think about is next year. Yep that is what happens to teachers. We never stop thinking about work. It just doesn't go away.

I need to go finish packing, take a shower (I STINK!) and go to bed. If I am not around much you know where I am. WORKING ON MY TAN!

*Sorry for the all caps words! I am tired and can't help being dramatic!

18 comments:

BestLight said...

What a tough conversation with your dad. You were very stoic. I'm glad you're off to the beach to take care of yourself!

Chris said...

Happy summer vacation to you! I hope you enjoy your time in Tampa and enjoy your nephew and working on your tan.

Your time will come, my friend. Until then, enjoy summer, your hubby, and a few drinks.

KarenO said...

Yeah! A fellow teacher - pleased to meet you Sunny :) I found your blog via the Commentathon, thought I'd pop in to say hello! I'm a teeny bit jealous about your vacation in Tampa - it's winter holidays over here starting Friday, but I'll be home most of the time. Enjoy Tampa! :)

Chrystie said...

Sweet Sunny, I am going to miss you like stink this week! Maybe, in the dead of the night, while sneaking some sips from your hidden flask of Jack Daniels, you will find time to sit at the computer, and update us! I'm just gonna pray that the week turns out better than you think. I guess that's the good thing about dreading something, and expecting the worst: USUALLY it turns out much better than expected. Just know that it's okay to feel sad or whatever emotions spill over your heart. I love you!

tracey said...

it's going to be a long week - keep your expectations reasonable, tan your #%*# off, enjoy your nephew, be sad when you need to & ignore all the people like me who try to give you advice when we don't fully understand.

niobe said...

People are dumb. Life conspires to toss painful reminders in our path. Nonetheless, I hope your trip goes better than you expect.

PCOSMama said...

I know it's hard, but I hope you find some joy in that little nephew of yours too! Hopefully your family won't be too unsympathetic. If so, escape to the beach with a cooler full of margaritas or whatever is your favorite and have some time to yourself! You deserve to enjoy your vacation!

megan said...

i hope you're having a cocktail while you're working on that tan (and wearing sunscreen -- lots of sunscreen, please).
you have a hard week coming up...i hope the week goes quickly.

Carole said...

I feel what you are saying. I have a nephew that is 2 1/2 weeks older than my son who died. I love him...but sometimes it's just hard and sad.

Hope you come back super tan!
~Carole

dmarie said...

Enjoy Tampa and your nephew. As for the dry summer, my hubby would love for me to do that too. He can keep wishing...lol

LJ said...

I'm with you on the drinking. When I'm not cycling, I am drinking. That totally makes me look like an alcoholic, but I can only do two drinks a night if I'm REALLY drinking, so I'm a lightweight.

I'll grab a drink with you whenever you want!

Enjoy Tampa!

A.M.S. said...

Enjoy the drinks! Hope you manage to have some vacation-y fun in Tampa. May it be a preggo-free zone for you (I know what you mean about them being everywhere...I think they're ganging up to follow me these days.)

Rachel said...

Wow, you are braver than me. I hope it goes OK with your nephew.

FattyPants said...

Have a great vacation and some good drinks.

The Town Criers said...

I cannot even tell you how good a raspberry vodka and lemonade sounds right now. Where do they serve those for real? That's where you're taking me when you get back from Tampa.

I didn't realize that was what was waiting for you in Tampa. I was thinking beach/amusement parks. Sending good thoughts of an easy week since you're down there right now.

Pamela Jeanne said...

I admire your stamina in being around the little one that has also cast such a spell on your father. You have my admiration...

Patience said...

Nothing wrong with a little bit of drama my friend! x

Inconceivable said...

Hey I live in Tampa!! thanks for stoping by and posting. Have fun workin on that tan. I hope the vacation allows you time to be "just relaxed". If you want to meet a fellow blogger send me an email - we can meet for coffe or something and share war stories