Sunday, March 19, 2006

Preggos and Sermons

Another Sunday, another morning filled with pregnant bellies everywhere. It seems that it is a sickness these days. I haven't seen this many bellies since trying to get pregnant first got tough. Even Grumps noticed it today. Pretty soon the nursery where I help out will be filled with new borns wailing away. At one moment I was in the presence of 4 pregnant ladies. Man it got overwhelming.

I have thought of taking a break from the nursery. Taking a break from it all. Grumps thinks it would be great to have our Sundays longer to just be lunch. That would mean cutting out Sunday lunch with friends. We have been having Sunday lunches for almost 2 years. It would also mean that those little ones that love me so will be missing me. I know that sounds crazy but there are at least two that really need me in the nursery. The really bad thing would be that when Grumps is gone I probably won't go to church. I won't have a reason to make me go. I have thought about this break over and over again for the past year.

I know, you all will say, "Do what is best for you. Take care of yourself. Give yourself a break." I am just not sure.

I think you will enjoy this little part of church today. Part of the sermon. The pastor was talking about reconciliation, being peace makers. He said that we need to be right with God. We need to abide in Him. I totally agree with all of that. Then he gave an illustration. We need to be intimate with God. He and his wife cultivated their relationship and strived towards intimacy. In doing so they created 3 beautiful girls. The girls are the fruit of the intimate relationship. The love that they have for each other.

With that being said, not having children shows how a relationship isn't intimate? I know that isn't what he meant but that is how it came off. Even Grumps heard it.

I know I have been very cynical these days. My attitude hasn't been the best. I am sure you are tired of my funk that I am in. I am sorry.

Today in the nursery the conversation was all about being pregnant and babies and what not. The typical conversation. I was bad and put a damper on it all with my problems. What a kill joy. But it did make me smile. I am awful these days. For those of you who temp, mine have leveled off for the past week. Maybe things are on the up for me!


Jennie said...

oh Sunny honey never say sorry for feeling blue or for using your blog to help get those feelings out, we who read you come here to share your path with you the good the bad the ugly and the silly every bit not just the good stuff.

I'm not sure what to say re: the nursery it sounds like you enjoy it so much perhaps a compromise and do it fortnightly a week with grumps and then a week with the babes then when he's out of town if you want to go in for that sunday the option is still open.

I hope you do what you need to do and it makes you smile but regardless chickling I'll be back to catch up no matter what.

Sunny said...

Thank you J. You made me feel better.

kojak said...

Women are something else, ya know. Hard to figure out what they want and don't want. If you're having trouble with women, I've posted an article "Pointers for the Dunces" going through some DOs and DON'Ts. Check it out, you may learn something.

Sunny said...

Lebatron thank you. Not quite sure if you have ready my blog or post. Thinking that you might just be spamming.