Sunday, April 23, 2006

My Mind

My mind has been running on overtime these days. I have many people on my mind in different stages of their lives. I want to be there for them, hoping that it will take the pressure off of me and my own life.

I continue to think about my job and how I am not happy in it. I made a list of likes and dislikes the other day. It was sad to see that my dislikes out weighed my likes in a huge way. I don't want to live my life like that.

Yesterday I saw one too many families. It really began to drive me nuts. Then I started to think that this just can't be normal. I think about this way too much. I can't even begin to count the number of times I think about me and my life and babies and children and not having one and never having one and.... God please make it all just STOP!

Mother's Day is only a couple of weeks away.

On a good note, Grumps and I had a GREAT time last night. Yes, truly great time. I will share more details this week.

Finally thank you friend for hanging with me tonight. I know that it was to help you feel better but it helped me even more. Thank you for helping me sort through my crazy mind and being a sounding board.


laura said...

It is normal ... totally normal to be obsessed with the one thing that you want more than anything. Or the two things. Or whatever. Don't discount yourself. You will have a baby someday.

Sunny said...

Thank you Laura.

Sunnie said...

I LOVE LOVE LOVE your blog!

And my namesake too!

WOW! Your thoughts hit me "right here".

Blessings to you!

Jennie said...

I wish I had words to make this whole thing easier for you sunny, sadly I don't know what they are or if there are any. just know your not alone and we're out there thinking good things for you.