Wednesday, December 06, 2006

Frustrated Once Again! But here...

New York was WONDERFUL! It was really good to reconnect. I just knew we would make a little Apple baby. Well... my temp took a dive and screwed it all up.

I was hoping to either get a bfp or a bfn at least a couple of weeks before Christmas. It now looks like I will be getting my news around Christmas. Nice when I have to be at my families with my big fake smile on. It just wears me out thinking about it. I am trying my best to push past and not obsess.

At the beginning of the week I got news that someone from church miscarried on Monday. D was an amazing friend and went with her to the doctor and held her hand. It shook me to the core. I remember all the feelings once again.

I am just pushing through working hard to not think let my mind screw me up.

Thank you all for your sweet comments and words of encouragement. You have are my steady hand!


snapshots said...

Soooo glad you had a great time in NYC. YEAH!!

kell said...

Hi Sunny,

I'm glad to hear you had a great time in NY. I am sorr your temperature took a dive and didnt do what you wanted it to do. I remember a couple of Christmas's in a row on the verge of a bfn or bfp and not liking that feeling at all. Hang in there. I know its harder this time of year but you are strong and I know you will get through this. Plus you have us to help :-)

Happy Holidays.

Alli said...

Glad you had a good trip! How fun.