Monday, October 08, 2007

Me and My Ramblings

I am here, finally with my wireless working! (Thanks S!!!) Not having my wireless working has really been a drag. HA! I have so much tv to catch up on and not having blogs to read with the tv has been hard. I know, it sounds crazy. But not being able catch up on blogs kills me. I had over 250 posts to read this weekend. Yep, I feel like that is a lot. I finally caught up! I haven't caught up on tv.

October is here. It looks like we will be able to change my insurance without waiting for January. It scares me. Totally scares me. I am in a good place, minus the preggos that surround me. I don't want to go into the dark places of IF. I enjoy breathing. There are times when it can be hard but barely breathing is a different place.

I am feeling that alone feeling again. Not because I don't have amazing friends but because I am left behind. I guess I should stand tall and be proud that at least I am still standing. But still standing alone can be a hard place.

Dmarie THANK YOU for the bracelets. My next post will be about them. Grumps amazed me.

14 comments:

Meghan said...

You should be proud that you're still standing. Sometimes it takes everything in me to just get up.

And know that you're never standing completely alone...all of us have got your back!

Fertilize Me said...

You many be standing all the way up there in the north but I am standing with you in blog land (and many many others). I hope you can feel the bloglove to help you stand longer

Cathleen said...

Out here standing with you...

Hugs.

Melissa said...

Although it may feel like it, you are not standing alone...

Wordgirl said...

I'm standing with you too.

Your post was a wonderful reminder to me to breathe...you said it just right --

Here's to focusing on the light...

Pam

dmarie said...

You're very welcome :)

Let me know if I can do anything for you.

LJ said...

You, my dear, are so incredibly brave and strong. Keep breathing, you are doing fantastic.

JJ said...

You know Im standing right there with you!

laura said...

Great news about the insurance. Fall is a time of starting over, rebirth, maybe it will bring you good things. Go into it with your head held high, as always!

tracey said...

You're not alone! In fact, it's kinda crowded back here with all of us who have your back. You might want to think of renting out a bigger space for us. At least send back some snacks.

lub said...

I'm still standing with you. You are a dedicated blog reader. I would go totally nuts if I didn't have you ladies to read about. Glad your internet is fixed!

The Town Criers said...

That's great that you can switch insurance now--yes, it throws you into the game (only if you want--you can still wait) but it also brings choice.

In and Out of Luck said...

It is really good news about the insurance, though I know what you mean about the raised emotional stakes that come with jumping into treatment (for the first time, or again). You're not alone.

jill said...

You're so not alone... Remember, there's a waiting list just to be your friend! And I'm so glad I made the cut!