Thursday, August 09, 2007

I Don't

Want to be 31 and childless~!

I love my husband but this is not what I had EVER imagined my life would ever be.

I can promise you, I won't have a baby by the time I am 32. I won't have a baby by the time we have been trying for 5 years.

I DON'T LIKE TODAY!

19 comments:

Leah said...

I don't like it for you today either. This sucks, I'm so sorry. Since I'm sure you're not in the mood for it, I'll go ahead and be wildly optimistic and positive on your behalf, okay? Okay.

Can't wait to see you at our next get together. We can drink some wine and talk about how jacked up all of this is. Then we'll laugh a lot and it will be okay, at least for a minute or two.

Jay said...

All I can say is... never say never.

((((HUGS)))))

The Town Criers said...

There are really no good words for today. For this week. For this entire year since your baby. I'm just so sorry, Sunny.

Zee said...

I'm so, so sorry for today, Sunny. Tomorrow is three years for me. It's horrible and unfair and it never goes away. I'll be thinking of you.

PCOSMama said...

Maybe not by 32 (I don't know when your birthday is) but I'll be holding onto hope for you that you have your little miracle in your arms by your 33rd birthday.

So sorry for this horrible anniversary. Have an extra glass of wine (or 2 or 3) and do whatever you need to do to get through.

GLouise said...

Thinking of you sweetie!

hope548 said...

So sorry for your loss and that you have to re-live it. I hope you will find peace as this difficult time passes. I'm also 31 and coming up on 5 years of ttc right before my 32nd birthday!

Reproductive Jeans said...

Thinking of you...I know it's such a common phrase to say, but I really am...and hope you can feel it...

Karen said...

As others have said, there really AREN'T any words for this. This journey, this struggle... some days are better than others and some are far, far worse than others. Sounds like yesterday at least was one of the terrible, horrible, no good, very bad days.

It's sucky. It really is. You're in my thoughts and prayers. I wish I could offer you more than that.

Chris said...

Sunny, my heart just breaks for you, and I have no real words to comfort you. Just know that you are not alone, and I continue to pray for you.

dmarie said...

I'm so sorry Sunny! I'll be 32 in February myself.

Cathleen said...

I'm sorry that you are having such a tough day.

((((HUGS))))

Fertilize Me said...

sending you LOTS of virtual hugs ... I am 31 and childless ,, I will hang on to hope for the both od us today - you can hanve it back when you want it

Monica said...

(((HUGS))) to you, and ditto PCOS Mama. I know time is the biggest enemy sometimes. I'll be thinking about you.

Lori said...

Sunny, I'm so sorry this is a hard time for you.

I hope today and all the tomorrows bring better things.

Jenna said...

I hear you. I'm 31 too and I honestly never saw this for myself. Everyday I wonder what 32 will bring and then SMACK... in three months I'll be facing that very reality.

I wish things were differnt for you. Your pain is felt in my heart so clearly. It's so hard not to look back and even harder to look forward. And the present doesn't look so promising either.

Wishing you better days, Sunny.

FattyPants said...

I'm sorry. I wish there was some way to ease your pain.

Melissa said...

I am sorry you have had to reach this painful milestone. Thinking of you and praying for you...

niobe said...

I'm so sorry. Of course, you don't like today. Why on earth should you? I'm hoping that, slowly or (preferably) quickly, things will begin to change for you and your days will brighten.