Sunday, February 19, 2006

Mind Games


First I feel like all of my titles are all repeating themselves. I just needed to put that out there.

I am having mind game problems. I have been crampy all week with my back really hurting. I thought that it all meant that I would be starting a cycle. I was super excited to think that now I really can start trying again.

Well what I am feeling just isn't normal. My back feels as if I have been lifting weights. NOT, I have been doing nothing of the such. My belly is no longer crampy but very pinchy and nauseous. So the mind games begin.

I am going to stop these games tomorrow morning. I bought a test. Yes, a dreadful test. I just want to know so I can stop playing 'what if's'. You know the kind. I start dreaming that I am pregnant. I start thinking about how I will tell everyone. Who will I tell first? Calling Iris first thing in the morning with the news. Getting on my message boards. I have been daydreaming all day.

So tomorrow all games will stop! I will either have my dream of a Big Fat Positive OR I will get the dreaded Big Fat Negative. At least my mind can rest. Fingers crossed!!!!

12 comments:

snapshots said...

Fingers crossed with you.

Jay said...

I'm crossing everything for ya. (((hug)))

Sunny said...

It was negative. At least the mind game is over. :) Thank you girls.

Sunny said...

I know. Thank you for checking on me! I have missed you posting.

southern peach said...

I'm sorry :( Soon, though Sunny, you'll be giddy with excitement at posting about you being pregnant :)
*hugs *

laura said...

I'm so sorry, Sunny. On to the next month.

snapshots said...

I am so, so, so, sorry.
Love you!
(((Hugs)))

Jay said...

Sorry hon. (((hugs)))

Jennie said...

argh Sunny I am so very sorry it was a neg they suck the big one dont they! hope your sacrificing a gooey cake or nice bottle of vino

Sheryl said...

Awwww... sorry Sunny :( {{HUGS}}

Beth said...

I am so sorry about the negative.

Sunny said...

Thank you girls,

Jennie I am sacrificing a nice King Cake. :) I also spent some time with M&Ms. :)

I am actually okay. I am even better now that I just know that I am one way or another.

KWIM?

Thank you for the support girls. HUGS back at you!