Monday, August 21, 2006

Not Alone

It is amazing how sometimes you just feel so alone in your pain but when you look up from it all you see that you aren't the only one here.

A couple of nights ago Grumps had to go to bed early. I wasn't in the mood for tv. I had my book down in the basement with me but it didn't sound fun either. So I began to search and read blogs from other blogs. I found some amazing woman with very sad stories. I sat at my computer and cried and cried and cried. I cried for me but I mainly cried for them. I have added some new blogs to my sidebar.

In my real life I have many friends who have gone through this awful journey. Some are still on it and totally grieve with me. Others have been on it and have moved onto my dream journey. But the look in their eyes and the hugs that they give speak millions. They have walked in my shoes and can still remember that awful pain.

I also have friends who haven't gone through this and I am glad for them. It is very hard for them to watch me stumble along on my journey. They try so hard to help carry me. I am very grateful for them. I can see in their eyes the pain as well. It is the pain for me. They feel lost at what to say and do but they have done an amazing job. I am so proud of their courage.

I am so glad I am not alone. Being alone on this journey would be a place where I just don't know if I could make it one step further. But most of all I am so thankful for my Heavenly Father who has walked this journey before me and is ALWAYS there for me.

*Thanks D for the talk and wine today. I needed it more than words! LOVE YOU!


laura said...

You absolutly are not alone. I'm finding that, whatever stage in life you are at, if you look hard enough, you will find people at that very same stage, or those who remember it clearly, and want to help. You just have to ask for it.

Sunny said...

Laura so perfectly said!

Alli said...

Laura's words are so true. {{hugs}}

Emmie said...

I hope you are doing a little better. I'm thinking of you. You're right--we're all in this together, and you are not alone.

Mel said...

You are certainly not alone. I am so sorry to learn of your loss. This is a really hard time and sometimes the only ones who really get it, are the ones who have been through it. Take care of yourself.

Sunny said...

Thank you girls!

Niki said...

Thank you for reminding me that I'm not alone.

May God bless you.