Friday, August 11, 2006

An Angel in Heaven

I wanted to let all of you know that we now have an angel in heaven.

We went in for our 8 week sonogram and found that the baby didn't have a heart beat. We were very devistated. My doctor wanted to confirm this with a sonogram from a radiologist before we take care of it all. Today it was confirmed.

I never thought we would be here today. BUT I am so blessed to have had 8 weeks of life growing inside of me. I wouldn't trade it for the world. Life is an amazing thing. I am still blown away with how small cells are formed so simply.

We are sad. Our hearts are heavy. All of our baby things are being moved to our hope chest. I even went and bought new clothes yesterday so that I have things to wear.

Thank you all for your many prayers and thoughts these past weeks. I have felt surrounded by love and peace.

We are still praying for our little miracle. It will happen some day!

18 comments:

Eve said...

Oh gosh sweetie... I am so, so, so sorry. Hang in there...

Amber said...

I have no words... I am so sad - I have cried - and prayed, and will keep praying. We love you guys!

e. said...

I am sorry - my heart hurts for you.

Miracles & Dreams said...

I am sorry to hear of your loss.
you are right in saying "We are still praying for our little miracle. It will happen some day!" Don't loose the hope that is what got me thru.

kell said...

i am so sorry sunny. i have been praying for you all this time. please know you are always in my thoughts and prayers.

southern peach said...

I am so sorry Sunny! Know that you guys are in my prayers!

Larisa said...

I am so so sorry. You sound so strong and positive - I am amazed.

Shazz said...

Sweety I am so sorry to hear of your news. From one mother with a Angel to another I am sending lots of hugs your way. Just take every day as it comes and no more.
xx

laura said...

oh god. i'm so so sorry for your pain. your strength and attitude are inspiring.

miss m said...

Sunny, hugs and prayers for you.

I too am inspired by your hope and your strength. I'm sure that doesn't make the loss any easier ...

Big Pissy said...

Sunny,

I am SO sorry to hear this....

You have such a great attitude.

I admire you for being so strong.

*hard hugs*

Pissy

Betsy said...

Sunny I am so sorry to hear this. You and Grumps are in my thoughts.

It WILL happen for you some day!

Sending lots of prayers your way...

GLouise said...

So very sorry to hear this news. You are in my thoughts and prayers,

Jenna said...

I'm here by way of the roundup and even though this isn't a recent post, I am sure you are still mourning this loss. I admire that you have been able to appreciate the life you had for such a short time and I admire your strength to see it in positive terms. I lost our baby a year and a half ago and there are times when I feel this way. But more often than not, I feel the loss, not the hope of it. Thank you for sharing this most private experience.

Kami said...

I am also coming by way of the roundup. I am sorry for your loss and hope you are still happy you were able to provide a good environment for your child for those 8 weeks. That is a very nice thought. Our first pregnancy ended with loss as well and I probably hit my lowest point about a year after that loss. Infertility is hard, but for me, it was harder after having almost had a baby. May your miracle happen for you soon.

Geohde said...

First, may I say just how very sorry I am for your loss.

You post with such grace.

(Another roundup referee)

xx

J

Chili said...

Here from the Round Up as well. I hope you've found peace with this loss over the last year. I'm sure the upcoming anniversary will be hard, but it sounds like you are very strong.

Lori said...

Sunny, I am holding you in my heart over the next several weeks.

This is a very touching post. There are no words...
Lori