Friday, September 29, 2006

A Blue Week

This week has been a major blue week. I am so over the timed sex, temperature sticking, muscus checking. It hit me that I just wasn't ready for this. I cried the first time we tried this week. Of course I kept it from Grumps. Why should I make him worry?

I thought we were done with all of this.

I could barely keep it together this week. I felt like I was falling apart, unraveling, drowning, and suffocating. The weight was crushing on my chest.

I took baths to relax. I went on walks by myself. I spent time with God. Nothing seemed to really work. It must have been the prayers last night because I woke up finally feeling like me.

At one point this week early in the morning I decided that if we did not have our miracle by my due date we might just have to quit. I am not sure I can continue this roller coaster much longer.

Let's hope and pray that tonight will be the winner shot!


Curly Mommy said...

I'm sorry you are feeling so blue. You are in my prayers.

Sarah said...

I totally understand how you feel. I feel it too. I will keep praying for you. Love you !!